inspiration.

i keep wishing that i had somewhere to store cool things that i stumble upon instead of just keeping a million and a half tabs open. and then i remember that i'm reading blogs where people do that. and then i remember that i have a blog.

100 Layer Cake is a website where brides can recycle their previously loved wedding decor and others can use it to make their day special. Love it!

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let's be real.

today, i am at what feels may be a pivotal moment in my life.

being at home this month more than i normally am has given me some time alone with my thoughts. though i usually enjoy thinking and processing, i have been analyzing my life more than ever. the more i think about it, the more worked up i get. everyone has an idea of what they want to be in their head. for me, it's the kind of clothes that i would buy if i had the money, the house i would live in, the decorations i would put inside to make me feel good, the foods i want to eat. that's a lot of what this blog becomes for me, and reading blogs in general, is dreaming up a different life for myself. not that i'm not happy where i'm at, but i'm always looking ahead. and to be honest, it's exhausting.

i think that's the word i've been using a lot. exhausting.

the amount i think about one thing over and over in a day is exhausting.

the expectations i set for myself are exhausting.

Psalm 55:22 says, "Cast your burden upon the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken."

Praise God.

because:

i can't do this on my own.

He willingly and lovingly sustains me.

He is not easily tired of me.

He knows me.

He loves me exactly where I'm at.

He loves me exactly where I'm at, but refines me.

photobooth is sometimes embarassing.

today i took a few photobooth pictures. and while i was at it, i thought i'd look through the progression since the beginning of my freshman year here at DBU. wanna see?

just don't make fun, okay? (but it is kind of funny)

(fall 2009)

(winter 2009)

(spring 2010)

(summer 2010)

(fall 2010)

(winter 2010)

(today! p.s. i got a haircut. 11 inches!)

i know we all have them, but i feel like it's always embarrassing to get on someone's computer and see all of their photobooth pictures. "yeah, that's totally uncool to sit around for an hour and take pictures of yourself. who does that?"

okay, i admit it, i sometimes do. but hey, it's documenting my life! can you see the progression? i feel like i've changed so much from the first to the last.

i'm growing up, y'all!

home inspiration.

loving these bulb pendants right now:

(from West Elm)

and these colored ones too.

and this one from a loft for sell in Sweden. the whole place is great itself. (via A CUP OF JO)

oh, be still my heart. perfection!

it all makes me drool a little.

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i was just thinking...

it's hard to break a habit once it's begun.

such as not blogging.

oh, my poor neglected blog.

i started thinking about this thanks to the tiny little cut on middle finger. though i didn't realize until now, it is apparently the finger that i use to control the mouse (is it still called a mouse if you don't actually have a mouse? i don't know). and though it is uncomfortable to use the finger, i still use it. because using my pointer finger doesn't feel right. and i even had to type my password a few times because i couldn't get my fingers to move correctly.

i'm not sure why that made me feel like i should blog, but here i am.

2010 is gone. craziness. i don't really miss it either. i actually haven't thought much about it. it had it's ups, it had it's downs. but it ended ever so lovely, because mr. chase is now my boyfriend. and he's so great. even better than a pb and j with chunky peanut butter. (and i reeaally like pb and j with chunky peanut butter).

i'm having the best break ever. aunt tricia, uncle thom, and the three t's came and visited from Virginia with my precious new baby Tenley. she is an absolute dream! i miss them too much. come back Green's!

AND i got the instax mini! i've been through a set of film and need to scan them and i will share them all on here.

and there are still two weeks left of this break.!!